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Standing anxiously outside the gates, hands unrestful, I waited… Feeling like a small scared child on the first day of school…
I ached to meet my Saviour but reluctance tugged at my heart…
“There’s millions here. Millions. There’s so much I want to tell Him but will I have time? Will He even know it’s me?”
Swallowing the lump in my throat, I fought back tears…
Snatches of my life flashed through my mind, bits and pieces I wanted to tell Him.
“Remember the time I begged you to take my life so I could escape the hell I was living in? Thank you for making me live. “
“Remember how I walked away, I didn’t talk to you anymore but that one night you came and talked to me? Thank you for loving me enough. “
“Remember when I felt so ugly and worthless? You wrapped me up in your arms so tight and told me I was beautiful and priceless through Christ! You gave me a reason to go on!”
“Remember my tears? How they never ceased to fall? You used them to wash my eyes of judgment so I could see with much more love.”
“Remember how my life was over and I had nothing to get up for in the morning? You showed me the faces of my children and made me listen to their laughter. You brought healing through childlike faith.”
“Remember how my heart was broken and I didn’t know what to do with the pieces? So you used them to help others and through that I saw brokenness can be beautiful.”
“Remember how I was hit and scorned and I didn’t know what to do with the storm inside me? You held me while I cried. Thank you for catching each tear!”
“Remember…?”
“Remember…”
A wave of fear washed over me. Disappointment, dread almost, that maybe He would smile, but not even know who I was…
Another person walked through the gates…
I was next…
My heart beat faster, frantically wondering how I could explain, how I could possibly put into words my life…
Would He remember? Would He know it was me?
Will He know…
It was my turn…
It was so bright beyond the gate I couldn’t see.
Just a wall of illumination.
Timid and shaking, I walked through…
It was so warm…
Then, just inside, I saw Him…
He was intently looking for someone… peering over the sea of faces…
My feet were stilled…
I stared, frozen…
He looked my way and His eyes met mine…
They lit with more recognition than I could have ever imagined! His face beamed like the sunshine I loved so much!
“I’ve been waiting for you!” He cried with arms spread as wide as the sky itself!
My feet were loosed and I ran for what seemed like forever.
Finally I reached Him. The One I had longed to see for so long. My Healer, my Comforter, my Saviour!
He caught me mid air in an embrace that took all fear away. My broken heart immediately mended, my worries completely gone, my joy overflowing, my life understood.
It was then I knew the meaning of the scripture, “God is love”.
Tears upon tears streamed down my face!
His nail scarred hand brushed my hair as He whispered, “Shh, I know, I know. You’re ok now. You’re home.”
He knew! He remembered! He remembered it was me!
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